哭

1st time i feel like wana cry in front of u all ( my dearest friend ). recently i so moody, but i still pretend like nothing. continue my duty -- entertain my friends. but i start to feel tire, tire and tire. i am just a normal human, just a girl. need people care of me.

1st time i feel worry my friends betray me. i cant even control myself in thinking negative. i try to tell myself he is a fella that not worth for me to waste my time and love on him. furthermore, he is the 1 who create a lot of problem to me, mentally torture me. but what else thing i can do. i really worry. if he really create that problem means that all my friends never do the bad thing behind. but i still feel sad and want cry. why a guy that i love before can do this kind of thing to hurt me.

on the other hand, i worry this kind of thing is doing by my best friends also. i really don't hope my friend around me will treat me like this. in my 3 years uni life, i really happy to have best friends like you guys. if really my friends betray, i think i am the person want to escape and don't want to face the fact. am i so turtle. but i got no choice. if not i will be crazy 1 day. sad, sob sob...

i wish i can cry without care my image in front of u all. i just want to be myself, Ng Sock Nie. don't want pretend and acting in public anymore.